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Red Juliet by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

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Red Juliet

exposed he stood to stare at you eyes glazed as he lay down instead of caring you chose the words to turn the charade around but where were those emotions?? the ones that bled and clawed and screamed? The ones that made sure any love was only part of a dream still his eyes were like a fairytale innocent yet somehow filled so you grasped his heart with both your hands and let that "love" spill you squeezed until he loved no more until his eyes were as grey as dusk you laughed as he fell to the ground betrayal outlining his heart But though no more do you speak his name or glance upon his withered face you sleep with his empty

mannequin by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

shaded by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

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shaded

shaded blue just as you were perfect to me shaded beauty that only i can see but shaded eyes can't see the grey please dont hurt me .. not again distortion plays in the background and i cant hear you static sounds shaded blue to bring me down only this time i'll stare as the tears fade destroyed by the shadow that you became and still i fall leave me down leave me down shades of pain silently crowd and cover me just as you were but why do i bleed? when in my eyes your the same to me distorted eyes cant see the change left to destroy me.. deform me again shadows blind the distance between us and i cant see you not

tear it all away by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

15 minutes by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

the blind and the ugly by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

...in what youve destroyed by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

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angel that killed me by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

hey lord by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

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hey lord

Hey lord I can see your avoiding me again. Putting strain the relationship we both don't want. Id give it away tomorrow if anyone would take it. Your too fake, I make too many mistake. Hey leader, hey lord, do you forgive me for hating you? Turn the other cheek and I'll hit that too, but love thy neighbor, love me. Your supposedly above me. but it always rains when your around. slowly, your pushing me down. I can tell your hiding how you really feel. It really hurts when you build me up to break me. And I've been broken so many times it doesn't hurt anymore. If you can see it all, did you like watching me fall? Hey leader, hey lord, do

stolen feet by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

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stolen feet

Stolen feet I want to walk away from you but some thing holds me back, Years of twisted lies, no pride and still I keep up this act. Alone I hope for something more than ignorance from you, You say I never loved you anyway, even though I tried to. I stand in my reflection and don't recognize what I see, I hate what's staring back, this cruel bitch you've forced me to be. I'd fight away the times I was you to keep standing as me. And now there's broken mirrors lying at my stolen feet. I tried to cut off my ties to people I actually loved, And I was left with the regret that you weren't in my cold heart. You push your way inside the pieces

bow down by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

voices by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

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voices

voices Trapped like a criminal, inside my own mind, alone to find, there never was anyone else. Cant trust myself, my lies sedate me, calmer when I'm hating, and I hate everything. My eyes sting, no time for tears, dry for years, so I scream instead. In my head, is the only place, I can ever feel safe, but somehow the voices torture me. Lost without the people that were never there before, and I now that I've broken free I need something more, but the voices that kept me alive, won't let me live. Won't let me leave. Won't let me go. I tried to run, but something held me, a silent hostage, crying out to nothing. The voices would win, I was

at ur mercy by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

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at ur mercy

At your mercy Dancing to the music in my head, only brings me shame, more hate to my name. I bring out the worst in you, I turn to find myself looking in your broken eyes. Despising the times I held close. I'll lie at your feet, at your mercy, my life in your hands just to watch you drop me. Hiding behind the fake smiles, while I beak down without a word without a sound. Your sympathy is meaningless, I'll fall without you to the bitter ground you told me wasn't there. You find the blood drip from my lips. I'll lie at your feet, at your mercy, my life in your hands just to watch you drop me. I'll look up as I fall to your smiling face.

break the fall by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

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break the fall

Break the fall Help me out of the hole you dug too deep. I died a lonely death trying to keep fighting you. I always use you as my reason for hurting. Its worthless, when I know see my pain. How can you help when you pushed me off the edge again? I flew because you told me I had wings, I needed something to believe in, now I need you to break the fall. Pick me up where you left me for dead. Its not my fault my screams echo in your head when your deaf. I always use for my disguise. It can't hide, when you see everything. How can you catch me if I'm stuck in the air between you and hell? I flew because you told me I had wings, I needed some

weighed down by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

what u want by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

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what u want

What you want Around my neck I wake to your hands, I turn to face the mirror that you wrecked again. I'm imprisoned in your mind. Locked with a key I won't find without your help. I can't move when the walls smother me 'til I see the night sky. You can't lie because now I see everything. Your words are just wire around my throat, one more step I choke. I wrote my suicide note in your blood. Just another thing I take before you lower me to my grave. Lingering silence makes me scream 'til you hear. But the distance you ran away is so near to my only fear. I can't see you stumble around the darkness in my heart. Time is waiting for our next m

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She.. by broken-theory, literature

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She..

Holding it all inside Beneath the scarred skin Her thoughts begin to take sides Eating away at her soul within She cant handle it all Her walls are closing in Without a sense of confidence Watching it all fall One wish, one hope to give it all away Turn her back and run away Face her wildest fears and say goodbye To know the truth but wonder why She sees it clear, living a lie Feeling empty without a sight Sitting alone in sorrow and darkness Cold, Naked... and heartless

Here sits the greatest lover by xd0rkvict0rx, literature

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Here sits the greatest lover

A boy once said to me "I feel the way a child does Pushed away Away from the day I was born." And I said to him "sweet brother this skin you're in Belongs to another but all the shedding in the world couldn't change what lies inside." And all we did was nod But now Now nothings the same And we both take up too much room What was the same has turned gray And withered away Our voices fray when we scream

Slipping Through The Spaces by GrungeGirl666, literature

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Slipping Through The Spaces

Surrounded by these tear stains Swamped in memories from our remains Your in vague distance, Tiny figure Could i fire you down, Pull the trigger No, For i still long to be the one you touch Tried to tell you that i loved you much Yet i left it to late to prove the way I throw myself into the thorns where i'll lay Pierce my flesh until i bleed Until you can promise me what i need If a lie had never made its way from your lips I wouldnt be hurting as my heart rips So i keep running behind you until i grab your hand You'll see my words carved through this sand A way to call you back, A way to say i'm in pain A way to get off my kn

Anti-Vengeance. by Masochanical, literature

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Anti-Vengeance.

Anti-Vengeance. Filled with my quiet hate, Wordlessly I endure the taunts of those who stand above. Outbursts encourage more… and Silence gives them freedom. I have no forgiveness for those who target me. I want to cry, I want to die, I want them all to end. Teeth gritting, Hands shaking, I pour my thoughts into a book. Such sadism, this Is sad isn't it? People as a whole disappoint me. They will cry, They will die, They will all soon end. - They will cry, just like I do, Then they'll die, just like I do, They will all soon end. I can't kill you all but I can try. Because this world is so small, They can hide behi

Absence Makes The Heart... by Masochanical, literature

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Absence Makes The Heart...

Eating my insides, I am so hollow, They fight at my throat and I must swallow, I open my mouth to scream, A swarm of locusts escape to attack me. You are the one, you are the one, you are the one, you are the one. You say you want me but you've always got to win, Can't stand you but you always drag me back in, You're so proud of me; I'm your rare and pretty, perfect boy, But when we're all alone I don't matter anymore. You are the one, you are the one, you are the one, you are the one. I want you back so much I can't walk, In a straight line, I cannot see, My pain blinds me, I want you back so much I can't breathe, My insides t

Scratch my eyes by LiL-Miss, literature

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Scratch my eyes

Come crawl, bore Into my heart I suffer you Tear it apart Innocent as my blood on your hands You need to understand Breathe sweetly Into my lips Blood rushing Suffocating grip I'll scratch my eyes Until they bleed Scratch my eyes Till I finally see I'm a fucking freak I'm comforted by the pain You give me Crawling cowardly Living on past memories Scratching the surface of tears Dare to believe what your spirit hears Choking on lies and deceit That's what my life used to be. I'll scratch my eyes Until they bleed Scratch my eyes Till I finally see I'm a fucking freak I'm comforted by the pain You give me Try

It's Ok by beatyourheartout, literature

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It's Ok

I know inside its over Actually I don't think it ever began It kind hurts, more it stings Now that I finally understand It's a recurring thought, a stupid dream That we should be together It's sad I know, pathetic somehow But it's all right, I'm trying to forget you altogether My heart still screams for your attention But now I know it will never be We're too different, yet too the same I don't think we'll ever end happily But it's ok, it's ok I've had my cry, had my mourn It's ok, it's ok now I have no excuse to fall It felt wrong before it began You are too shallow Too superficial to understand That beauty isn't all for s

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I fucking hate you by fuKtHislOVesHit, literature

I fucking hate you

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Australia
Deviant for 20 years
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Current Residence: queensland
Favourite genre of music: heavy, rock or metal or a bit of pun k if its done right
Favourite cartoon character: jack from the nightmare before christmas
Personal Quote: u laugh at me bcoz im different i laugh at u cos ur all the same - Korn, head

Favourite Movies

dude, where's my car? Fat Pizza... man its such a kewl movie, jay n silent bob strike back all good!

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

japunga disturbed, thursday, staind, poisen the well, slipknot, metallica, skulker, DOPE, nirvana

Tools of the Trade

microsoft word lol, notebooks, scrap paper, my biology book (its so borin i have nothin else 2 do)

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music, guitar, writing songs, starting up a band and touring with disturbed, thrusday, staind etc.

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fuKtHislOVesHit

Dec 2, 2004

just friends

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u no wot? parents are gay. ur friends get on ur back to start eating agen after like not eating for a month n then ur mums all like oh dont eat all that. boys are gay. they say one thing and mean another. also they move on really quick. theyre never straight forward. and so damn irresistible omg its annoying. friends are gay. u start to luv being around them na dhtne they LEAVE YOUR SCHOOL!!! CHANTELL!! I DONT WANT HER TO GO AHHHHH!!! people are gay. theyre so damn judgemental. and you walk through the airport chasing after rhys pretending you have chafe and od they laugh? no they give u mean looks. IM NOT A FREAK DAMNIT!! i am gay. a to

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fuKtHislOVesHit

Sep 20, 2004

guys are all the same

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you know its funny cos like i thought i liked this guy, then he sed he liked me n u think that things (for once) could actually work out ok... ... WRONG its like he sed i shouldnt try not to care cos then im missing out on other things... but if i didnt take his advice what would i be missing out on right now? pain? rejection? not being good enough for him? knowing that every single time i try to let some guy inside they always hurt me? well i shouldve just listened to myself wen i sed it wont work, it never does so why would rhys be ne different from every other guy? im not good enough becoz im not christian but hey lifes like tha

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fuKtHislOVesHit

Sep 9, 2004

i hate the way..

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you know today i sed to myself.. how do i feel right now? and i wrote down ..this is you... i hate the way you mean more to me ... than i'll ever mean to you i hate the way way i feel for you ...and that you'll never know and now im listenin to tuesday's gone by metallica... im gettin all sad n depressed but hey good nite to everyone remember.. things never end happily.. they just end